THE MEANING OF LIFE!!

Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference.

I went on a retreat and all I came back with was...

THE MEANING OF LIFE!!

Backstory......

One of 3 OUTRAGEOUS GOALS I set myself 5 years ago was to be able to dance in public without the need for copious amounts of alcohol.

So wasted that I couldn't even remember the next day.

That's how bad my performance and social anxiety, perfectionism, imposter syndrome, and whatever else you could throw at it, was around dancing in public.

My feet felt like they were encased in concrete.

Ironically, the reason I set that goal is that I gave up alcohol and discovered that it hadn't been a crutch.

It had been a barrier.

I connected to an incredible inner joy that I just needed to express through dance.

I've smashed that goal.

Fast forward to the retreat.

One of the exercises was singing around a fire pit.

My reaction......oh my F***ing God.....😬😬😬

I didn't think anything could be worse than my dancing anxiety....

I didn't volunteer but was peer group pressured into singing a couple of solo lines.

The next morning I had a realisation.

The reason I'd opened up dancing was by connecting to my inner JOY and expressing that.

Not by performing (like a dancing monkey on social media...)

When it came to singing I'd immediately reverted to performance. What would I sound like, I wasn't good enough, shame, all that rubbish....

Then this simple sentence came to me from nowhere:

"BEING NOT PERFORMANCE"

It opened up a portal.

Later that day I volunteered to dance in the middle of a group circle and VOLUNTARILY added song! WTF??

It was an expression of my JOY. Who cares what anyone thinks.

So the meaning of life? (for me)

BEING NOT PERFORMANCE.

EXPRESSION NOT JUDGEMENT (of myself)

The question I ask myself is:

Where's it coming from?

If it's from within, it's beautiful. That's all I need to know.

How do you express your JOY?